Tonighs Topic-Marriage

OK, Well last night I was at my Friends house with my boyfriend of five years. While we are all just randomly cuttin up him and my best friend start talking about being on a beach in Florida and how pretty it would be to get married there and so forth. So here is my issue then, like i just mentioned, I have been with my better half for going on 5 years now. I am very, let me make this clear, I AM VERY CONTENT with what we have. There is no pressure, no doubt, no worries, no trust issues. Things work very well the way there are at this point in time. I am not the type that sees marriage as a priority in life when there are so many other things we could do with our money and time. Now with that being said, yes every girl wants that one day to dress up and feel like it is their day but I also don't need someone to stand in front of me and tell me how I need to live with the man I love. Now there is only one thing or person should I say that could actually change my mind on this and that is my father. I want my dad to have the honor of giving me away and walking me down the isle. Had he walked my sister down the isle, I wouldn't care. Seeing as to how he didn't and because of this his feelings were very hurt I feel like its my job as his last daughter to give him that chance. Most people know how I feel about marriage and understand what it means to me. Yes I love my man with every ounce of my being but at the same time just as we are never guaranteed tomorrow we are never promised that we will stay in love for ever. No i cant see my life with out him in it but as don't think it fair for us to have to get divorced if we cant work things out when all i have to do it just move out. There just sees to be to many cons in the situation for me to actually feel comfortable about making a decision. I know he has thought about asking me before because he hints around to it, but i also think hes scared of me saying no since he knows that its really something that I don't want to do at this point in life. I'm more interested in having one more child before all mine are grown adults. 

Fake People RANT

So I write to you today to vent..... I recently decided to become friends with someone who I knew was completely different than me, from her relationship down to the way she handles situations with other people. Now the person asks me all the time, "well what should I do?" and of course I answer weather its just to say don't let it bother you or that she should think of a different way to handle it. Bottom line is, she don't listen and then wants to come and complain to me that shes scared or worried that she is not making him happy. FIRST off you dumb ass chick, you are married to this man and have a kid with him. If he didn't love you or want to be with you he wouldn't, you don't really got it like that. He is not going to spare your feelings in that way. SECOND off stop being such a bitch and making everything so bad all the time. If you changed your attitude about shit you would probably be happier if you didn't always whine like a five year old! THIRD off, we are all grown now and don't have time to deal with the "is he/she cheating?" They are fishing and all you can do is start shit with him about where, why and with who. The guys have something in common that you could careless about and if you really loved him you wouldn't be such a bitch about where and what they are doing. And now we come to where I am extremely pissed...... You are not my ONLY friend and we really don't have much in common besides our men. If I want to go out one night and happen to not immediately not invite you along. Then when you call me its to say, I'm bothered by this, why didn't you wanna go with me? Well here's my answer- If your not going to let your husband of 4 years go to a damn bar or club, guess what bitch  you ain't going either. Your marriage is supposed to be equal and fair and yours is far from that. Before I go hanging out with you and your shitty ass attitude you have to fix somethings and know that I'm moving forward in my life and the last thing I'm going to let happen is to let your dumb ass bring me down in my fun life. Grow up then holla at me, I really don't have time for this shit anymore!